2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge at night: Chocolate ice cream.
3. How much money would it take to give up the internet for one year: Wow, that would completely destroy my social life. Um. Enough money for me to be able to never have to work again would do it.
4. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie: I don't see enough movies to know.
5. Do you have a completely irrational fear: Hmm. Well, I've always been mortally terrified of all herpes-family viruses, including chicken pox, ever since I was about five years old and found out that the chicken pox virus stays in your body for decades after you've gotten over chicken pox and then comes back to haunt you in the form of shingles. To the best of my knowledge I've never been infected with any herpes-family viruses, and I've also been vaccinated for chicken pox. But I was told by the doctor who vaccinated me about eight years ago that next time I had blood drawn for some other purpose, I should ask them to also check for chicken pox antibodies just to verify that the shot really works, because even though I had two separate doses of the vaccine, there's still a small percentage of people for whom the vaccine doesn't take until the third dose. And I've only had my blood drawn once in the eight years since then, and on that occasion I forgot to ask them to verify that I have antibodies to chicken pox. So as a result, I'm still deathly terrified of chicken pox, even after having been vaccinated.
It'd be hard to argue that a fear of painful diseases is completely irrational. But it's the closest thing that came to mind.
6. What is a physical habit that gives away your insecure moments: Trembling uncontrollably. It happens all the time. Like, when I was called to the company vice president's office to be informed that I was being laid off, when I hadn't yet been informed but suspected I was about to be told something or other really bad since it wasn't normal to be called to the vice president's office - I reached for the doorknob to enter and had a hard time opening it because my hand was shaking.
7. Do you know anyone famous: Define "famous." Define "know." Um, I've had multiple online conversations with David Bowie and he's read stuff I wrote and remembers who I am and once named something I made for him as his BowieNet Site of the Day. On the other hand, it's been several years since I last even went to his chatroom to look for him, let alone actually found him. So that would be really rather a stretch to call that "knowing" him. And although I could name a bunch of substantially less famous people I've interacted with somewhat more, including numerous people on LiveJournal, it would still be kind of a stretch to claim I actually "know" them either. They're LiveJournal acquaintances rather than close friends.
8. Describe your bed: Unmade. Dark purple sheets. Navy blue velvet bedspread. Twin bed that's been mine since I was first given any bed at all, when I was around two years old. The headboard is pretty scratched up from ten-year-old me having carved my scores from a handheld electronic tennis game involving Peanuts cartoon characters in it. Some of the scratches are now covered by a bumper sticker on the center top of the headboard that reads: "You May Say I'm a Dreamer, But I'm Not the Only One."
9. Do you know how to play poker: No. I attempted to learn the rules from a computer poker game once about ten years ago, but it didn't stick at all.
10. What do you carry with you at all times: Purse, wallet, driver's license, credit cards, money. Usually chapstick and nailclippers. Often some old receipts I haven't gotten around to throwing away yet.
11. What do you miss most about being little: Not having to do laundry. But I'd have to have been really little for that to wholly apply.
12. Are you happy with your given name: It's all right.
13. What color is your bedroom: White.
14. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person: I consider myself to not be a mean person, and I consider myself to go out of my way to help strangers at times. I don't consider myself to be particularly more forgiving than average. I consider myself to be considerably less open to just loving every random person I meet than most people are. In other words, I have rather firm self-protective boundaries in terms of who I'm willing to befriend, but I also try to help protect and care for other people to the maximum extent I can without feeling that I'm endangering mysef unacceptably. (Erg, that's such a generalization it could mean practically anything. I will give up on trying to communicate any meaningful here and just stop babbling now.)
15. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends: I spend more time with Mikie, but the question of what Mikie is to me is exceedingly complicated. Best friend/ex is one possible description, but might imply more platonicness than is accurate.
16. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't: Sing. Like, you know, carrying an actual tune.
17. What is your ideal marriage location: It's never really occurred to me to care, beyond the fact that it shouldn't be a church. And I don't care for those other places they have set up to just be year-round Places to Get Married, either.
18. What's one instrument you wish you could play: I can't really play any of them, but I've attempted the keyboard and the guitar, so I guess those are what I wish I could play. Slight preference for keyboard if I have to pick just one.
19. Something you love and hate: Frank Aqueno and metacarp. With a higher ratio of hate to love for Frank than for metacarp, but plenty of both emotions in both cases.
20. What's one language you want to learn: I find it very discouraging to have to study a subject for years to even be as competent as a lot of five-year-olds. I would like to un-forget the Spanish I already learned, but I'm not really sufficiently motivated to want to learn anything beyond that.
21. What do you order at a bar: Nothing, because I do not go to a bar.
22. Have you ever pierced your body parts: No. Unless you're asking whether I've ever accidentally stepped on a thumbtack.
23. Do you drive stick: No.
24. What's one trait you hate in a person: Just one? I'm sorry, my feelings of bitterness toward my species are much too complex for me to feel able to narrow it down to just one.
25. What kind of watch do you wear: Timex Kids' digital. It's purple. With turquoise trim. And a fabric watchband.
26. Do you consider yourself materialistic: Substantially less so than most people I know.
27. Favorite writing instrument: purple gel pens. They're expensive, though, so they're a rare privilege.
28. Do you prefer to blend in or stand out: I prefer to stand out to a certain limited extent. :p
29. Do you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex: No. I generally do not prefer to stand out quite as much as I would that way. If I could blend in as a man I'd be very interested in trying it, but the point would be to see whether people treated me better that way. If I just go out dressed as a man without actually passing as one at all, I already know how I'll be treated (especially from accompanying Mikie) and it doesn't hold any particular appeal.
30. What is one car you will never buy: A pickup truck.
31. If you won the lottery, what would you do: Buy a very small home (I don't want a lot of rooms to clean), somewhere that's close to both "big city" and "nature," and live there quietly on a trust fund, grateful for not having to work anymore.
32. Burial or cremation: I don't really feel like this is any of my business. Once I'm dead, what happens to my body is going to affect the people who miss me rather than affecting me. So it should be up to them. Whatever makes them happy.
33. If you don't like a person, how do you show it: If I think there's any chance that explaining to them why I don't like them might turn them into someone I'd like more (or hate less), then I tell them. Otherwise, I just don't pay very much attention to them.
34. What kind of first impression do you think you give people: "That shy Amish lady in the corner who doesn't talk to anybody. Yeah, the one with the pretty clothes. Why doesn't she talk?"
35. How many drinks before you're tipsy: I wouldn't know. I'm a teetotaller.
36. Have you ever done any illegal drugs: No.
37. Do you think you're cute: Usually.
38. Do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends: I have no idea. Which friends? I haven't encountered this situation since high school gym class. And in high school gym class I was much more afraid of people thinking I was looking at them than I was of being looked at by other people.
39. Whats the most painful experience you've ever had (emotionally and/or physically): See #19. That's two experiences, so consider them the top two.
40. Favorite communication method: LiveJournal followed by email followed by in person discussion followed by AIM followed by telephone followed by snail mail followed by pictionary followed by mime followed by smoke signals.