Gayle Madwin (queerbychoice) wrote,
Gayle Madwin

  • Mood:
  • Music:

Loving People, Being Loved

Several teenagers on LiveJournal who I don't really know very well have said things in the past week that reminded me of myself and thereby made me momentarily adore them. I wish everyone would inspire me to adore them a lot more often.

I got an unexpected drunken cyber-hug from Furball out of the blue today and it reminded me that there are a whole lot of people who really like me a lot. I don't know what surprises me most anymore - the fact that a lot of people don't like me or the fact that a lot of people do. If all the people would get together and agree on any one consistent opinion I expect I could get used to it. Or if there were a consistent pattern to the difference - if people consistently liked me if I liked them and did nice things for them, and disliked me if I disliked them or didn't do anything nice for them.

But then, I don't like or dislike people primarily on the basis of whether they like or dislike me either. I like or dislike people on the basis of whether they possess a whole array of specific qualities that I look for in the people I prefer to surround myself with - and liking me is one such quality, but certainly not the only one. And although I do possess all (or at least 99%) of the qualities I prefer in other people, those other people don't necessarily seek the same qualities that I do.

It's all very unfortunate really. But since there are a lot of people who really like me a lot, and since there doesn't seem to be anything much wrong with most of them aside from my not knowing them very well, I should probably consider paying more attention to them.

I'm making a Midwinter present for Imp today. Anyone else who wants a present from me is welcome to write me a convincing explanation of why I should give them one, and I'll consider it.
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.